Compelled.

Exceptional feeling. pure focus on each object. defined with utter correctness.

Backwards thought.

When I was eighteen, I wanted so bad to be 25. Older, cooler, something more than what I was. At 27, I realize what funny thinking that was. I wonder how I would have acted 3 or 4 years ago with how I think now. Change is inevitable. You will always change. If you miss it, then you miss it. But it you catch it, change is a beautiful thing. Sometimes difficult. Sometimes Sad. But looking back, your accomplishments and for that matter, failures define who you are today. Something to appreciate. But always taken for granted.

I embrace change. I am glad for who I am today. I have been a wonderful person, a huge asshole, prick, jerk, and I am sure, there are ex's who can give you better description. Yes, I have participated in all angles of life, behaviors, and social failures. I wish I could be friends to those who I have been mean too. To show them, that there is something different here. Yet, the reality is those previous impressions are set in stone and I have to deal with that. Fine. Move forward. Progress. This adventure is going to be marvelous. I will not allow anyone to stop this train.

Man, I have been reading way to much Metaphysics........ being. thing. something. one good and true. Six transcendental notions.

On A Cold Winter's Evening...

This is one of those days in which I understand why having a vehicle would benefit. Tonight was such a very cold, cold ride home. I enjoyed every minute of my ride home, it gave me so much think about. Enduring very brisk weather on a bicycle allows you such pleasures.

So a couple of things.

1. Thank you Anthony Bourdain for reminding me of what a crackpot owner is.

- I work very hard at my job. I keep my mouth shut, make sure I am humble, and be the best possible employee that I can. I love being a chef and understanding the system of a restaurant and enjoying the bounty that lies within. And that is all I am going to say about that.

2. Understanding an individual and how they perceive their habitat is amazing.

- We have not changed much as a human race. We have grown in intellect but still have the same basic habits. When a person works an evening shift in a bar, their movements are silent, the pat on the back is understood, and the dance is proven with effective efficiency.

3. Comradery is number one.

- When I am off work, I am still working. I help clean, prepare, back up, or handle anything necessary. I have never put in the extra work before. It is worth it, give a little extra to the job and they give a little back. What an amazing and simple plan.. I feel like such a fool for not getting it sooner.. Ah, lessons learned...